Bible Question:
Hi Friends... I one asked God to kill me as i had been through many problems .... I then asked God what to do about a work situation and shortly afterwards i was fired.... i took it as a sign... and left ... so basically for God i left my family town friends everything ... Which the bible says if u leave family ect for God your rewards will be everlasting eternity or something along those lines ( i think ) God answered my death proposal by almost killing me ... in the end i survived.... however still not satisfied , I was offered a job in another town , but decided to rather complete an alpha course and hopefully find God..... during the alpha course i somehow commited an eternal sin by swearing against the Holy spirit (was not planned) I wondering if that was Satan acting in my life or if God was trying to teach me a lesson ? what do u guys think ? I am seriously stuck and do not know what to do .... catch 22 Do u think i am going to hell ? |
Bible Answer: Hi, Malcom777! When Scripture speaks of leaving everything for Jesus Christ... it means just that! The twelve disciples, as well as some others, left their families, jobs, friends, towns, etc... in order to walk with Jesus... those who are called to serve the Lord must be willing to do the same... yet, not eveybody is called to minister to the world... and not all who give up things/people do it for the Lord... How is it that you gave up your family, job, etc. for the Lord... are you a volunteer minister, preacher, evengelist...? "during the alpha course i somehow commited an eternal sin by swearing against the Holy spirit (was not planned)" Are you saying that you no longer believe in Jesus Christ or that you doubt His Power? Are you rejecting the Holy Spirit as God? Are you rejecting His Power to teach you and Save you? By asking/telling God to kill you you are provoking His anger... but more dangerous than that, you are rejecting His gift of life--in essence, you are saying that you know better than God... remember the parable of the coins? You have to work with whatever you have! Do you believe that God has the power to protect you from evil? Do you believe that God is stronger than Satan? Do you believe that Jesus died for you: to save you from yourself and from the powers of sin? God does not want you to perish! Jesus came to rescue all who humbly believe in Him from eternal damnation and no amount of stupidity, sin, ignorance, or any other limitations can void Christ's Sacrifice on the Cross! In Him you are free from the wages of sin! Let Him use you! Repent from your prideful behavior! Reject Satan and all the doubt that he has placed in your path! Get closer to God, serving willingly and humbly and He will get closer to you! There are many on-line Bible Study Groups, join as many as you are able; search the Scripture for answers; stay in a prayerful disposition every day, and every hour of the day! Remember that your battle is not as simple as it seems... your struggle is with spiritual principalities (Satan and his minions) and you yourself are not strong enough to face them; seek Jesus! Make Bible Study your dialy task! Ask the Holy Spirit for enlightenment and patience... remember James words... be slow to speak and slower even to anger! God Bless! Angel |