Bible Question: I know little about scripture, I have felt the Holy Spirit. I am saved. I am miserable, lonely, depressed, sad. I can't hear Jesus when I pray and I have given up. I talk to Jesus all the time (like right now). "Knock and I will enter" "Ask and you will recieve" I have begged on my knees . I have done EVERYTHING I can think of. (for years) I am actually disgusted when I think about not EVER getting answers. If the Lord is speaking to me and I am just not hearing or understand, I have asked Him to Please make it clear, I have begged Him not to make it so hard for me to hear him. I have the right to speak to my Lord. I have a right to be answered. Our family is not one that has been raised in the Church, I am referred to as the "Bible" "God" etc person of the family. Nothing will ever make me give away my belief and salvation (even if I never again feel i have comunicated). I know He hears me everytime I speak and I know He is aware of everything I feel, think or do. The Lord knows every hair on my head. Can you tell me why I dont hear anything from my God? I ask why and I am told I am getting answers but i am not listening. Sure, I see the beautiful earth, I see the awsomeness in a child. I know I am a creation of God. I want and need something personally. I waited 50 years and I finally got a visit from the Holy Ghost, I was on high for several days but that eventually went away. I have asked so many times and in every possible way I know for help to open my ears. I am so desperate I am asking someone I dont know, through a computer keyboard. I wont take advice from just anybody but I have been a member for several years and I will take into consideration the answere I get from this site. I think it's pethetic that I should resort to this. What advice do you have for me? |
Bible Answer: Dear Mamametal: I don't think it is at all pathetic that you've asked. God put Christians in a network (the church) for a reason. We are to help each other. I had the same question in mind as CDBJ. The first question that always comes to mind when I hear of a story such as the one you've shared is "What makes you sure you are saved?" If I hear an answer back that goes something like.. "I remember talking with the preacher once and he told me to pray.." or "I remember the feeling I had..." that usually sends up a red flag. Salvation isn't based on whether or not you said the right prayer or talked to a preacher. It is not based on a feeling, either. Please hear me with grace and understand I've been in those shoes. I believed I was a child of God for 13 years. I'm thankful every day that God opened my eyes and helped me understand that I was not. Salvation comes from an understanding of our condition as a sinner, seperated from God, facing His judgement in the future. The Bible says that the payment for this sin is death and that Christ became that payment for us when He died on the cross. He took our sin and gave us His righteousness. We did not earn it. As far as hearing from God, We hear from God through His Word. I cannot express to you the utmost importance and value of daily time with God through Bible reading, in prayer as well, but reading His Word can't be left out. When I began reading His word, I 'heard' from Him more and more. The more I read, the better I know my God. I encourage you to do the same. Have you perhaps tried any bible studies? I pray that you will read this response with the love that it was written with. I've been in your shoes. Different circumstances, sure, but the uncertainty and frustration it breeds are surely similar. My prayer for you is that you do in fact know Christ as your savior and will begin to know a beautiful relationship with Him as you start chasing after Him through His Word. In Christ, Bojangles207 |