Bible Question: This is not necissarily a specific scripture question or interpretation. My question however is: "As I long to know Jesus much better, as I long to understand what Cavalry exactly means to me, I find my understanding and love continue to grow. However, my initiation or desire to know Jesus better began slowly years ago out of personal experiences. Experiences that presented me with the conclusion...Please help me, I can't do this alone....So perhaps I am worried that my motive to know Christ better stems from a selfish desire to acheive answers or happiness, or even outcomes that I want. Is this Ok or 'warped' thinking? Would anyone please respond to this thinking? Thank You. |
Bible Answer: Dear NoEyeHasSeen, I think it is good that you are being honest with yourself. It is very human to be selfish. Everyone is selfish from the time we are born. It is our instinct for self-preservation. It is not a virtue, but it is our nature, our natural self. The devil may use this realization to accuse you but THAT is what is wrong in your thinking. Do not accept self-condemnation for what is in the past...Jesus saved you, did He not? Jesus knows what and who we are before we know ourselves. Instead of being embarrassed, or ashamed, or disappointed in this realization, realize the goodness, kindness and greatness of our God who loves us- you and me. In Isaiah 53:6 it says: "We like sheep have gone astray; we have turned EVERYONE to his own way; and THE LORD HAS LAID ON HIM [CHRIST] THE INIQUITY OF US ALL." In other words, none of us is good. We all deserve that cross, but Jesus took it instead, because He loves you, and He loves me. If you look at it this way, this thought should be a cause for praise, not disappointment. It also says that we only came to love Him because He first loved us. We are not really capable of pure, unconditional love except through Him. The problem with psychology today...in general, is that it often tells a person that they are an emotional mess because of something their mother did or did not do to the, or their dad, or their teacher, etc., etc., when though this person may have been wronged, it is not the injustice that has been done to them but how they reacted to the injustice that has caused them the problem [they become bitter, unforgiving and resentful]. I believe we need to be able to see ourselves as the Lord gives us light to do so, and praise God that he still can make something out of us and loves us totally and committedly, though He [better than we] knows what we are. 1 John 4:19 says, "We love him, because He first loved us." I hope this is helpful to you. Itiswritten |