Subject: Where is God when I need him? |
Bible Note: I guess I stopped asking "Where was God when I was being hurt, torn down, abused and close to wanting to die" when I realized that the answer (to me) was that Jesus was there being hurt and abused and raped and ridiculed with me. I started asking where was I in my walk with Christ when these things were happening? I personally was no where near God. I was living it up. I had religion, but no relationship with God. I would go out and party and then run to confession thinking this was they way to live. Basically I was living in sin and since God cannot look upon sin then how could He bless me and guide me. Again this was my personal experience. I also know that satan came to seek me out, destroy me and kill me. In fact satan was using my own emotions to kill me off with bitterness. But the wonderful thing was the love of Christ was with me even if I didn't know it. The truth was that JESUS CAME TO GIVE YOU LIFE AND GIVE IT MORE ABUNDANTLY. Satan has a big hand in the bad things that happen in our lives but we have to remember that we live in a world where God gave us free will. That means that we live in the same world where the rapists, murders, sinners in general, have free will to act in whatever manner they desire. My job, well our job, is to stay continually in prayer. Seeking God's face. Listening to the Holy Spirit for discernment so that we may be able to judge and access the environment so that we may be safe. God makes promises to us, read Jer 29:11. I cannot make excuses for the suffering or even understand some of the things that happen in our lives, but I do know that I have a greater weapon and that is the word of God. I stopped being bitter with God when I figured who NOT to blame; Satan came to seek kill and destroy you, BUT JESUS, Jesus came to give you live and to give it more abundantly. I pray for God's peace to comfort you and come over you. I pray for God's loving ministry to come to you when you need it the least and the most. I plea the blood of Jesus over you for a hedge of protection day and night. And I command Our Heavenly Father's mighty angels to come and surround you and guide you every step of you way. These things I pray in JEsus Name. God Bless you!!! Just remember satan wants you out of the picture and he will put thoughts in your mind of self destruction, hatred, unforgiveness, even suicide. If I would have ended my life at that time I would have never known the wonderful man that I call my partner in life, I would have never seen all the lives come to Christ through the ministry God has blessed me and my husband with. AND it would have destroyed so many other lives. I am so blessed that I heard the voice of God through friends, songs, and Love. |