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NASB | Psalm 132:1 Remember, O LORD, on David's behalf, All his affliction; |
AMPLIFIED 2015 | Psalm 132:1 O LORD, remember on David's behalf All his hardship and affliction; |
Bible Question:
This is a long and complex question. Let me start by saying, I want to be with God intimatly. I have learnt a lot about God. About were He's been, what He's done, what He's like... but i want to 'MEET' Him. My spirit has been in a lot of termoil over this for quite some time now because, using the terminology of Tommy Tenney(author of a book called 'God Chasers'), i can't seem to 'Catch' Him. This Psalm 132 (and 130) i feel reflects my situation... i am so so so hungry for God. Yesterday i planned of fasting until God came to me (in a manifest presence), to show him the determination of my spirit to meet Him. But when talking about it to my Mum (who i assume is wiser than me, being older, and a Christian herself), i felt shot down. She explained that it wasnt a good idea because God doesnt really care if we fast or not. She filled my head with doubt as to whether He would come or not... and so on... Im not saying my Mum was wrong, but maybe i should be. I have done a course at my Church called 'Shape', (S is Spiritual Gifts, H is Heart, A is Abilities, P is Personality, E is Experience), and learnt that (as i always knew) i am a very naive and gullable person, much to my dissadvantage... i cant seem to make up my mind about where i stand. As you can imagine, this has added to my distress.... I need help. Does anyone have any advice or a Word for me...??? |
Bible Answer: Greetings SMO (?) - Look up the Scriptures referenced in this post! In reading Jer 29:13 and Acts 17:24 it seems to me that a change of heart is necessary. Imo, you need to change the way you think about God. You can't "catch" God nor can you manipulate Him by your actions or determination. The Lod knows you from the inside out; He knows what is motivating you. (Prov 16:2)Imo, you need to repent of this quest for God to "show up" - to "prove" an intimate relationship - which has in fact led to your doubt.(I believe this is actually a good thing, because it brings you to a place of choice - to believe or to doubt. I have always found it best to "doubt my doubts." If I "doubt" my doubt that God will show us I am more open to seeing Him as He wants to reveal Himself to me!) God IS all around us,(Num 14:21) where can you go from His presence? (Ps 139:7; Romans 8: 35-39) The problem as I see it is that you are looking for evidence in a self-centered manner, not allowing God to reveal Himself as He purposes for you. Sometime we just have to trust that He is who He says w/o ANY proof. That's faith. Without faith it is impossible to please God.(Heb 11:6) Imo, this is your crisis of belief. I encourage you to confess and repent of your attempt to manipulate God (Yesterday i planned of fasting until God came to me (in a manifest presence), to show him the determination of my spirit to meet Him.) and choose to believe that He is always with you, whether He chooses to reveal Himself or not. Start there. God loves you just the way you are; you don't have to show or "prove" anything to Him. Thank Him for this and choose to believe it! Read Eph 2:8-10. Lastly, I'm just wondering, are you SMO or a son or daughter of SMO? Blessings, mommapbs |