Subject: where is the joy of my salvation? |
Bible Note: Thank you for your words. I try to be careful not to blow my witness those times that I have doubt. My peers and family and friends look to me as someone they can come to with questions regarding Jesus and what scripture says. I have read the bible several times since my youth and have been avidly studying for the past two years. I feel blessed that God has answered my prayers, creating a desire for him and to grow that desire for the rest of my life. He continues to show me His faithfulness and His glory. So I am hopeful that I will experience that joy in Christ. That is not to say that I am unhappy, I just know there is more. God has blessed me with peace in so many areas of my life, but satan plaques me with the question of "if you are truly converted, where is your joy unspeakable". Most of the time I can push this away, but I cant help but wonder why I cannot seem to lay this one at Jesus' feet once and for all and leave it there. therefore a saddness deep in my spirit. Then I add insult to injury and listen to "way of the master" Radio with Kirk Cameron and Ray Comfort and am amazed at how many people either don't even consider Christ or just because they believe think that they are saved. It often overwhelms me with saddness that is so deep that no one sees it, but I can feel it. I know that David prayed "restore unto me the joy of my salvation" and I too have prayed this, however the joy I do experience I am greatful for. I just want to make sure that when I doubt or question my own salvation that this is "the father of lies" up to his old tricks. Again thank you for insight, God's word, and your blessings. Your sister in Christ. Linda |